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16th-Jan-2014 09:00 pm - The Taste
Brooklyn's Here
The Taste is the best reality/competition show. The end.
24th-Oct-2013 05:44 pm(no subject)
Brooklyn's Here
Dear Universe,

I won't bother you if you don't bother me. Deal?

21st-Oct-2013 11:16 pm(no subject)
Brooklyn's Here
But how do you know if it's impostor syndrome or if you really are lazy and a good faker who's just been lucking out at work?
1st-Feb-2013 08:51 am(no subject)
Brooklyn's Here
Just thinking about how sad it is that LJ's fallen out of vogue and few of us, myself included, use it anymore. I barely even remember to check it.

It's sad because there's not really anything that's replaced it. I mean, facebook has. But we don't use facebook to sit down and contemplate something and write a fully-developed post about it. That you can then edit when you realized you made typos or forgot to include something.

Eventually all communication will take place via brief comments, animated gifs, and emoticons.
18th-Aug-2012 09:16 pm - ugly veins
Brooklyn's Here
Lately there've been a couple of really ugly raised veins on my left forearm, right above my wrist. The ones on the backs of my hands have gotten bulgier too. They bulge primarily when I'm warm or active. Sign of aging, I guess.

I've felt self-conscious about them, especially about the ones on my left forearm. I think it's gross. Of course friends have told me that I'm crazy and that no one pays attention to such things. And of course, my friends are wrong and I'm completely justified in my self-consciousness, because today at lunch someone noticed and pointed out the veins.

I had to go to the bathroom and work very hard to keep myself from crying.

It seems like whenever there's something about my appearance that I dislike or am self-conscious about, I eventually get verification that my concerns are warranted.
9th-Aug-2012 09:22 am - Ugh
Brooklyn's Here
Ugh, seriously, sometimes I look in the mirror and I can't believe I've been dieting and working out for over a year and that I've lost a bunch of weight and supposedly look so much smaller, because the reflection I see now is fat and gross, and I'm so tired and I'm sick of it, and I just want to go eat ice cream and cookies. And cake and hot dogs and hamburgers. And pizza and french toast and danishes and steak and french fries. And onion rings.

ETA: And blintzes and cheesecake and pasta.
1st-Aug-2012 08:32 pm - Rent
Brooklyn's Here
Tis the season for rent-increase, I guess. Suck :(
6th-Jul-2012 05:28 pm - Awkward
Brooklyn's Here
Awkward: When the person who prompted a rant sends a friend request on facebook the following week.

I don't want to delete the post, but if he sees it he may realize that he's the one who prompted it. It's doubtful he'll actually go to my wall to look at my recent posts, but you never know how bored someone will be.

I don't even want to be facebook friends with him at all, but I hate ignoring requests. It feels mean.

Oh, facebook. Why must you be so annoying?
17th-Feb-2012 09:58 am - Downton Abbey
Brooklyn's Here
I'm up to one of the last episodes of Downton Abbey, and I still can't figure out if we're supposed to like the chauffeur dude.

Personally, I hate him. I'm just not sure if the show wants me to.
8th-Feb-2012 10:19 pm - SNOW!

Too bad it's so wet that it's not sticking even a little. But it sure is pretty in the air!
2nd-Feb-2012 09:00 pm(no subject)
adipose wave
I mentally re-distributed calories for the day, allowing myself to stop at Starbucks to get a third cup of coffee before getting on the train home after my physical therapy appointment.

Me: Can I please have a short sugar-free hazelnut coffee in a tall cup?
Barista: You're not gonna be payin' for that today.
Me: I'm not?
Barista: *Says something about taking my card to pretend to swipe it maybe? But I don't know because I couldn't make out what he was saying because he was talking in what he clearly thought was a low sexy voice*
Barista: What's your name?
Me: Celia.
Barista: Do you work in the area, Celia?
Me: No. I work in Queens and live in Queens.
Barista: Oh. Well, next time you're around, come in and see me.

And then he hands me a grande cup.

I used to appreciate it so much when they'd upgrade my drink size at Starbucks, but it rarely happened. Now it happens more, probably because I'm thinner and people are nicer to thinner people, but now it totally screws up my calorie calculations! I had to spill out half the cup, because I'd only allowed for a certain amount of milk, and that amount would not have been enough for such a large quantity of coffee.

Also, I think that Barista was wildly unprofessional and he made me uncomfortable with his soft-speaking. If you're going to flirt with me, at least speak up so I can hear you properly.

In conclusion, I want pizza SO badly. And a cheese danish. Two of them.
6th-Jan-2012 08:55 am - 30
adipose wave
30 lb.
18th-Dec-2011 10:13 pm(no subject)
Brooklyn's Here
I've been sad all day because of a dream I had last night.

In my dream, my grandmother was in the hospital, as she often was, and things looked bad...but the doctors managed to do some procedure, and she got much better. In the dream, she looked the way she looked several years ago, before she started losing weight and becoming frail and confused and passive.

I sat down on her hospital bed to chill with her, and she was all, "So, are there any cute boys here?" Which is exactly the sort of thing she used to ask.
6th-Dec-2011 09:32 am(no subject)
waily (Wee Free Men)
Chanukah's coming up. I really want to get to a store to buy candles as soon as possible so that I don't feel guilty if I buy the last box of something really pretty (because there will be time for the store to get more in stock or for people to shop around...) but I've been so damn busy and exhausted.

So, being so busy and exhausted, what did I do? I decided to host Friday night dinner this week. I kept the list at 11, including myself and a 4-year-old child, thinking that for sure at least one or two would decline. But so far no one has, and one asked if she could bring her brother, who'll be in town this weekend. I don't think I can physically fit 12, but I don't want to say no since she's one of the people in this 'hood that I've become the most friendly with. *le sigh*

Also, I really need clothes. I found a fantastic skirt at Loft yesterday, but it was so expensive and I don't want to buy expensive clothes that I hope to shrink out of. I'm hoping they do one of their "40% off EVERYTHING!" sales again really soon. It seems like they had that going on--or even 50% off--every day until I finally found myself in a Loft trying on clothes. Now it's only 40% off already-reduced items.
3rd-Nov-2011 05:45 pm(no subject)
nomnom (dexter)
Wow, I just got a well-developed response to an e-mail I sent a company. I tried Better Oats oatmeal, because it was on sale at the supermarket and it seemed healthier than other oatmeals I've had. I got the apples & cinnamon with flax seeds, which had fewer calories than the other flavors. I had it this morning and enjoyed it very much, but I wished that the flax seeds were ground rather than whole. They look pretty and healthy when you see them mixed in like that, but the body can't fully derive the nutrition when they're whole. So I wrote the company an e-mail telling them that I very much like the tasty-but-not-too-sweet flavor as well as the portion size, but that I wish the flax seeds were ground. I expected a standard generic "Thank you for your feedback! We'll take it into consideration!" response. I got the following:

We thank you for your comments regarding our oatmeal product.

Although some of our Better Oats products originally contained ground flaxseed, we changed to using whole flaxseeds due to shelf life concerns. We know that most nutrition experts recommend ground flaxseed as it is more digestible by the body and more nutritious.

Comments like yours regarding our products are carefully reviewed to keep us informed of consumer opinions and current issues. We understand your concern and your feedback is being shared with our product managers.

We are committed to producing wholesome quality products and offering them at an everyday low price. We are happy to learn that you are taking advantage of this savings. We also appreciate knowing how much you enjoy our product.

Thank you again for taking the time to contact us. Via US mail, we will be sending our one-time coupon mailing to you.

Better Oats Oatmeal

A logical explanation of their reasoning! I did not expect that.
29th-Oct-2011 08:22 pm(no subject)
No!, rant
Remember the awesome dress from a few entries ago? I wore it to shul (synagogue/temple) over the holidays (and it looked even better because between when I posted the pics and when I wore, I lost 3 or 4 more pounds) and got numerous compliments.

Today in shul a girl says to me, "I hope you're not too upset...but you know that dress you wore on Simchas Torah? It looked so great that I bought it in black."

Noooooo! There mustn't be smaller people wearing my clothes and looking better than I do in them! Plus, I'd MUCH rather have this dress in black. They only had it in taupe at the store I bought it in.
28th-Oct-2011 04:09 pm(no subject)
Twilight - Edward perfect art
Oh, Vampire Diaries. How you make me cry.
27th-Oct-2011 08:12 am - 20
Howl beautiful
Twenty pounds. Fina-f***ing-ly.

Another 20-30 to go. Le sigh.
4th-Oct-2011 07:14 pm(no subject)
Rawr (Bill True Blood)
Vampire Diaries is breaking my heart (in a good way) this season. Candice Accola's doing an amazing job with Caroline.
10th-Aug-2011 10:55 pm - Congratuwelldone to me
adipose wave
I appear to be one of the only overweight people capable of looking worse after losing some weight. I don't know why I expected otherwise.

Basically, just about anything I've lost has come from my behind, which certainly needed to shrink, but my belly is just as big as ever. So now I have the kind of body that's bigger out in front, which I'm not used to and which none of my clothes were made for.
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